Category Archives: Ramblings

Random thoughts and verbal chaos.

Hello world!

Hello world!

underreconstruction2Here we are again. I have lost the database for this site, again. Sigh. I have some of the older posts but the last two years and the oldest posts are AWOL. Many of these were articles about my Johnston family genealogy.  I will continue trying to find another backup. If I can’t, there will just be a gap. 🙂

Fight Like a Girl!

Fight Like a Girl!

Halloween is coming up fast and there has been a lot going on since I last posted to this blog. My husband and I purchased Cartwright Grocery from my aunt and uncle in April. I have become good friends the the mammo and ultrasound techs at Chattanooga Imaging on Hamill Road. About this time last year, I found the first lumps. Scary thoughts filled my head especially with the knowledge of everything that Aunt Maxine went through before her passing. I was terrified at times. I cried. I raged. I saw my doctor. The tests all showed that my lumps were fibroadenomas. Fibroadenomas are benign tumors made up of both glandular breast tissue and connective tissue. No cancer at that time. Whew. Six months later, no changes. Then two more make an appearance. Another mammogram, two more ultrasounds. Still no sign of cancerous cells. Women with fibroadenomas have a slightly increased risk of breast cancer (about 1½ to 2 times the risk of women with no breast changes) so I am not in the clear nor am I likely to ever be. Every six months, I have a mammogram and ultrasound. I just finished the latest ones. I am thrilled to be cancer free. My very soul hurts for my friends and family members who are not. I look at these strong, courageous women and I admire them for smiling, surviving, and living. Even those like Aunt Maxine who fought as long as she could until the cancer that started in her breasts ravaged her body and brain, smile until the end. I know that underneath the smile they have to be afraid of what lies ahead. I was. I am. I smile. I’m living. I’m lucky. In April, I will go back to Chattanooga Imaging. They know me there. Thankfully, I am more than just a patient to them. Come what may… no changes or cancer… I will survive because all of those who fought the fight before me educated their doctors, trained the techs, developed the medicines and surgical techniques that will allow me to do so. So fight like a girl. Don’t just survive – live!

I want a puppy!

I want a puppy!

Standifer has been bribing me. LOL. It’s obviously a big bribe too because he has offered to get me what I want and I want a puppy; not just any puppy though, I want a Bichon Frise 🙂 After doing a little reading and a lot of research, I have found two breeders semi-local; one is in Cookeville and the other is is Decatur. Both currently have litters available and I have requested information and pictures so that I can choose which ones that I like best before we make the trip for my present… uh… bribe… um, yeah… you know 🙂 I like the idea of the fluff ball being my Valentine’s Day gift.

We haven’t had a family dog since Pete passed two years ago. We had had him since he was six weeks old. He was the runt, the only boy in a litter of rambunctious little boxers. Standifer told me when Pete was tiny not to let him sit in my lap. I didn’t listen very well and up until the time he died, if I sat down “indian style”, he would get in my lap to sit. I am sure that it was funny to see but it wasn’t always too funny from underneath a ten year old boxer that thought he was a pup 🙂 I still miss that dog. But, I digress.

Yes, to answer your question, I am spoiled. My husband and I will celebrate our 23rd anniversary in 10 days. That’s how long we have been married, not how long we have been a couple. If I wasn’t so well loved and spoiled, I would have gotten rid of him a long time ago 😉

Jade’s Christmas Angel

Jade’s Christmas Angel

When we received the word last night of Kennedy’s nearing end, Jade (our little poet) put pen to paper once again for a tribute to a child her age that has left us way too soon. Many of you have heard her poem for Labron since it was read at Senior Day 2012. Wyatt’s is unfinished, there was too much emotion to allow the pen to move. Geoffrey’s is short like his time on this earth. Now, I would like to share with you Kennedy’s poem, Christmas Angel. Feel free to share it with others but PLEASE leave Jade’s name with it. It’s her tribute to her friend; it’s what her heart has to offer.

Christmas Angel
Written by Jade Kilgore December 17, 2012 in memory of Kennedy Griffith.

Christmas won’t be the same without you here,
every smile that I hold dear.
No welcomed feelings warmed my heart,
when I knew that you’d depart.
The presents and the smiling friends
will never truly makes amends.
Cold winter nights that freeze the breath
chill me to a greater depth.
Sorrow and pain bound me here
once I’d confirmed my biggest fear.
You are gone, not to return,
and that, itself, makes my tears burn.
But what through my blurry eyes I see,
your smiling face, greeting me!
Your mellow voice rings out on high
as you tell me not to cry.
That you are here, though never seen,
that you’re a Christmas Angel who got her wings!

ALGIA means pain

ALGIA means pain

I have Fibro-my-algia
And ALGIA means Pain,
So why do you treat me
With haughty disdain?

I am weak and I’m tired;
I struggle to think.
My balance is poor,
But you don’t make the link

To genuine poor health;
To genuine pain;
I have to remind you
Again and AGAIN.

I have Fibro-my-algia
A continual curse
Yes, some days I’m stronger,
But mostly I’m worse.

I struggle and push hard
through each tiring day,
And, no I’m NOT kidding,
It WON’T go away!

I have Fibro-my-algia;
I try not to mope,
But some days I crumble
And can’t really cope…

So please just believe me,
That’s all that I ask.
Is it really such an arduous,
Difficult task?

I have Fibro-my-algia
And algia means PAIN..
Your kind understanding
Might just keep me SANE…

Jade Won Best Actress at Broad Street Film Festival!

Jade Won Best Actress at Broad Street Film Festival!

 

jade_kilgore_bsff-200x300Jade won the award for Best Actress on April 21, 2012  at the Broad Street Film Festival Awards Ceremony for her role as Lilith in the short film “The Road Not Traveled”.  The movie is about a high school student who witnesses a friend being bullied but doesn’t report the bullying or intervene in any way. After the bullied student (played by Jadey) commits suicide, the main character struggled with guilt while trying to cope with the loss of her classmate.   All of the film crew and cast are students and faculty at Whitwell High School in Whitwell, TN. The cast includes Kennedy Blair, Paiton Patterson, Katie Johnson, Amber Hurd, Zach Hall, and Tanner Lee, starring Brooke Peacock and featuring Jade as Lilith.

Written by Jade and her dad Standifer, “The Road Not Traveled” was also nominated for Best Original Screenplay and Best Director.  It was produced and directed by my favorite husband :) It will next be shown in Marietta, GA on June 7, 2012 at Blank Stage, 585 Cobb Parkway South, and in Chattanooga on July 7, 2012 at Heritage House, 1428 Jenkins Road. Showtime for both locations is 7 P.M. Eastern time.

This film is not copy written, but instead released under the Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 License. You may view the movie in its entirety at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThNojPqRHfc&index=8&list=PL92009641CDC4AA8D

Although she has not decided on a college, Jade plans to continue her education after high school and major in Theater Arts and Acting.  She has already begun filming on her next “short” for the Intelligent Use of Water Film Competition.

Needless to say, I am one proud Mama!

The Road Not Traveled

The Road Not Traveled

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“The Road Not Traveled” is a short film produced and directed by my husband, Standifer Kilgore of Bad Prop Gun Productions. It was released for public screening on April 19, at the Carmike Majestic 12, 311 Broad Street.

The movie was filmed in its entirety in Whitwell. Written by Standifer and our daughter, Jade, it addresses one of the more serious consequences of bullying – suicide, or bullycide as it is often referred to by the media. As of this writing, 12 American teens have taken their own lives as a direct result of bullying in 2012.

All of the film crew and cast are students and faculty at Whitwell High School. The cast includes Kennedy Blair, Paiton Patterson, Katie Johnson, and Tanner Lee, starring Brooke Peacock and featuring Jade as Lilith.

The first screening was a part of the Broad Street Film Festival. The festival is an educational, regional, and original film festival that seeks to provide a venue for collegiate filmmakers in the Chattanooga, Tennessee area to show their work to their peers and to the community at large. A not-for-profit organization, the Broad Street Film Festival exists under the umbrella of the Community Foundation of Greater Chattanooga with its own board of directors.

Jade won Best Actress for her role as Lilith at the Broad Street Film Festival’s Award Ceremony. The movie was also nominated for Best Original Screenplay and Best Director.  It will next be shown in Marietta, GA on June 7, 2012 at Blank Stage, 585 Cobb Parkway South, and in Chattanooga on July 7, 2012 at Heritage House, 1428 Jenkins Road. Showtime for both locations is 7 P.M. Eastern time.

This film is not copy written, but instead released under the Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 License. You may view the movie in its entirety at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ThNojPqRHfc&index=8&list=PL92009641CDC4AA8D 

PayDay – a humorous CGI script by Stan Kilgore

PayDay – a humorous CGI script by Stan Kilgore

If you repost these “scripts” anywhere, be certain to leave the copyright information intact.

PayDay.Cgi           Sarah.Cgi
#!/usr/bin/perl

####################################################
# payday.cgi
# written by Stan Kilgore http://www.oneclickpic.com
# stankilgore@gmail.com on July 8, 2003.
# If you send this script to anyone, please leave
# this header in place. This humor script
# copyrighted 2003-2016 by Stan Kilgore.
###################################################

$paycheck = 750;

$pocketchange = $paycheck – (($kids * 3) + $wife);

if($pocketchange > 10.00) { &bar; } else { die; }

open(MOUTH,”<<goodexscuses.txt”);>
while() {
@all = split(/\n/);
foreach $exscuse (@all) {
$exscuse =~ s/s/sh/eg;
$exscuse =~ s/sweetheart/baby/eg;
$excuse =~ s/$time/$time-2/eg;
print $exscuse;
if($reply ne “OK, dear…”) {
$hole_dug++;
}
}
}
close(MOUTH);

if($hole_dug > 6) { die; } else { exit; }

########################################
# Subroutines
########################################

sub bar {

my $beer = 0;
their $price = 2;

while($pocketchange >= 2) {
if($request eq “Gimmie a beer, bartender!) {
$beer++;
$pocketchange = $pocketchange – 2;
}
}

my $bartab = 0;

while($beer < 12) {
if($pocketchange = 0) {
$bartab = $bartab + 2;
$beer++;
}

return;
}

}

 

Sarah – a humorous CGI script by Stan Kilgore

Sarah – a humorous CGI script by Stan Kilgore

If you repost these “scripts” anywhere, be certain to leave the copyright information intact.

PayDay.Cgi           Sarah.Cgi
This is the sarah script. I typed it from a hand written page that Stan had done. If the set-up and spacing of this one isn’t perfect… that would be my fault. LOL.

#!/usr/bin/perl

####################################################
# sarah.cgi
# written by Stan Kilgore http://www.oneclickpic.com
# stankilgore@gmail.com on July 2, 2003.
# If you send this script to anyone, please leave
# this header in place. This humor script
# copyrighted 2003-2016 by Stan Kilgore.
###################################################

@call_sarah {
print ("SARAH!!!")
pause (5);
if ($response="Huh?") {
kill --> Sarah;
exit;

}

until ($response ne "coming...") {
pause(more);

}

input sarah "Hey Daddy, guess what?";
if ($my_response = "What?" {
until ($useless_trivia = 500) {
Sarah -->print $useless_trivia;
$useless_trivia ++;

}

}else{
$my_reponse = "Your Mom wants you...";
dad --> print $my_reponse;

{

exit sarah;

}